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Love in Christ,

Yuki

Giving up for his glory

My mind has been so mess up.

I always pray and ask God to show me what is God's will and to leads me to his will.

There is nothing to compare to his perfect plan for me.

There is nothing to compare to follow him.

There is nothing to compare to his love,grace and mercy for me.

It is not hard for me mostly to give up something God does not want me to have.

But now I have been having a very hard time to give up one thing.

It seems like that is not what God wants me to have right now.

But I don't want to give up that. I am still praying and asking God if that is God's will or not.

God knows how much I want it.

At same time he knows how much I am afraid of disobeying him.

"Set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. "

Colossians 3:1

"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." Psalm 62:5-8

I am not ready to give up this. Should I really give up this??

God please show me your will.

Full of his grace

A couple days ago I talked to Lisa who has came to Christ a week ago on the skype. I really wanted to talk to her and hear about the day she accepted Jesus as her saviour. Also I wanted to ask her how her life has changed since then.

She was so excited to see me and talk to me. First her word was " I miss you!"

That made me smile. So she told me how she decided to accept Jesus and how her life has changed.

She told me when we had Japanese Fellowship last month Miho(who used to live at Lighthouse and help ministry) gave Lisa an answer which helped Lisa to understand God's love and God's present. After that she had been reading some Japanese Christian books that I gave to her. Finally everything did make sense to her.

She told me that after she came to Christ she saw some of her friends whom she has not seen in a while. They told her that she is a different person. She used to not smile but now she smiles a lot. She seems so happy. Yes it is so true. I have noticed that she has been changed. She used to not so smile and so shy. But now she smiles and talks a lot. The best things is that she always gives me a huge hug and says " This much I love you!" That makes me so happy!!!!

So I asked her " What do you think makes you different?"

Her answer was " Knowing that I am loved by God gives me peace. "

I praised the LORD! My tears started coming down. I remember the first day she came to Lighthouse. I remember whenever she has told me that she does not have hope I always wished if she knew God's love. I had been waiting for this day over year. I was just so full of his grace.

"Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy! He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him."

Psalm 126:5-6

God's word is so true. He is so faithful.

"So will I ever sing praise to your name, as I perform my vows day after day." Psalm 61:8

Love with actions and in the truth

God didn't just give a little for us. He gave His best. He gave Himself. True love is sacrifice. And our love is shown by how we live our lives.

"Let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."

I love God with all my heart,with all my soul.

But how much I love others with actions and in the truth?

Sometimes I try to not show them my love. Why?

"Giving that is not motivated by love is worth nothing."

I need to ask myself "Whatever I am doing now is by love? "

If not then I should stop doing that.

Dear Lord

Please let me love others with actions and in the truth like Jesus does.

Please let me give to others by love.

Please clean my heart by your love.

Do you love with actions and in the truth?

God's wonderful works.

God is SO good. God is So faithful.

I got email from Lisa who is a one of Japanese girls comes to Lighthouse. She has been coming to Lighthouse over a year. She told me that she accepted Jesus as her saviour today 4,Sep,2009!!

Praise the Lord!!! Unfortunately I am in Germany now so I won't be able to see her soon and to give her a big hug.... but still I am SO happy for her. She is my sister in Christ now.:) I was waiting for this moment!!! Three Japanese girls came to Christ since April. This is amazing.

This great news encouraged me to decide to start new things in my Christian life.

I have been praying about it for long time.

I have decided to get some support and to cut my baby-sitting job. I want to focus to study his word and tell others. I want to spend more time to help ministry at Lighthouse. I want to interact with Japanese girls,students,Navy people,Navy wives & mothers... whoever God calls me to.

Please pray that the process to get support will be going well since everything is new to me.

Also please pray that I would be closer to God after this trip in Germany and Italy.

I have not finished last one but somehow I posted. I am sorry about that.
Anyway I was having hard time with my mother. This happened made me think how much I trust in God and how much I really know(understand) his words(truths). When I was talking to my mother, I didn't have a peace. Why? I was struggling because whatever she said is not God's will. But not only that reason. I think I still tried to control myself instead of giving the control to God. I forgot that "It is all about him. It is NOT about me!" My life is given from God and is for his glory. Whenever I remember this, I have a peace because nothing can bother me. When I focus on myself, I get upset, sad,depress easily.

"For from him and through him and to him are all things." Romans 11:36

Everything that is giving to us is from God and all is his glory.

"So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God" 1 Corinthians 10:31

Francis Chan asks in his book 「Crazy love」 "What does that mean for you and says? Frankly you need to get over yourself" I often remember how God has saved me and how he has changed me and thank God for all of that. And I tell God that I will give everything to him and I will live my life for him. Then how come can I be selfish so easily???

How much could I sacrifice myself for him in this trip? Could I surrender everything to him??

Before I came to Christ I always wanted to be cared, to be understood and to be loved by my mother in my life. My relation with her influenced my relations to others. I was always trying to feel love by being accepted and getting attentions by others. To feel love I always decided to do whatever people told me to do even I thought it was not right sometimes. I could not know what is the truth and what is the lie. "Be the person whom everyone likes = Be perfect" was the biggest purpose in my life. Francis Chan says

"When we face the holy God, "nice" isn't what we will be concerned with, and it definitely isn't what He will be thinking about. Any compliments you received on earth will be gone; all the reality of who we are before God."

(By Crazy love)

Knowing the truth(God and his words) is my precious treasure.

I have been asking myself this

"I know the truth but how much do I know(understand) and believe?"

It is so important to us to remind ourselves each day that our lives are for God's glory and because of the truth we can trust in Him and have peace and joy.

Holy God thank you so much for the truth and the promise you gave to me. Thank you for my life. God please help me to understand your words more and trust in you all I do. Please give me the strength to do only your will. Please let me the light to others. Thank you so much for your everlasting love.

I went to my home town two weeks ago. It had been one year since I went there last time.

I was so excited to see my family, to see how much I have grown as Christian and to share God's love with my family but at same time I was a little concerned about staying with my mother.

It was so nice to see my family. I had good time with them, specially with my nieces and nephews. I could tell them about God and Jesus and give them bible and some Christian book. One of my sisters children have been giving thanks to God before each meal since I visited them last time. That was a big encouragement. They always asked me to pray with them.

The hardest part of this trip was my mother. She had kept asking me to go out with one Japanese guy. (The guy is her friend's son. I met him on the second day.I believe my mother and her friend set up without telling me) I kept told her that I am not interested because he is not Christian. She got upset and told me that I need to listen to her. I was really tired of listening to her. It made me so sad. Because my relations with my mother have never gotten close I always feel I have never been a good daughter to her.

I understood that she wants me to marry and have some children. I do want to make her happy as her daughter but what she wants is not what God wants. I want make God happy more than anyone else. He is the one who found me and who loves me more than anyone.