I have decided to not moving to Canada. Yes, moving to Canada was one of my big dreams. When I got the working visa for Canada on Feb , I was so happy. I believed that God wants me to go there. I don't remember exactly since when but I had started to being wondering if it is Gods will for me to move to Canada because I was struggling. I had two feelings. I want to go but I don't want to go. I had been asking God to show me what his will is. He had been silent. So I tried to tell myself that since I got the visa,this is Gods will so I go. Yet I didn't have peace. Some friends said that since I am leaving soon, I have mixed feelings. I thought that is true. About three weeks ago Jim who is the director at Lighthouse asked me what is the purpose to go to Canada.I had to think about it in a while. I had been having a strong desire to leave Japan since when I was teenager. Because I believed that I can find the purpose to exist in this world. In other words I had felt there is no place for me to exist in Japan. Seven years ago I went to Canada for two weeks. I had a wonderful time. I loved Canada. Since then I had been dreaming about moving to Canada. So why I was struggling about moving to Canada?? I have realized that I am really interested in ministry. I am enjoying to help ministry here at Lighthouse.
Then I started thinking about going to bible college. This was the reason that I was struggling.
Since I became a christian the purpose in my life has been changed. I don't need to go find the purpose to exist in this word. God gave me the purpose in my life and he will leads me and provides everything I need in my life. He knows what I need and what is best for me. There is nothing I can do without him.
Thank you so much for all your prayer. Please keep praying that God shows me his will and the way I go.
I will live my life for him!!
