Change Things with Knowledge

"Commit way to the Lord; trust also in Him and He will bring it to pass."  Psalm 37:5

We are all eager for our situations and relationships to change, but nothing will change in our live s without knowledge of God's Word. In Hosea 4:6 says, "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge."  Change comes through prayer, and through waiting patiently on God. While we are waiting for God to solve our problems, we are not to complain to everybody else about our situation.  God tells us to trust Him. He is not asking us to trust the people involved in our problems; He is asking us to trust Him. There is a difference. He is faithful to rescue us from all our trouble.    (Starting your day right  By Joyce Meyer)

This is from my morning devotions book. 

I have been to Michigan for two weeks last month.  I have met many godly women there.  God put many desires of being godly woman in my heart.  I was so excited to be changed by God. 

Since I have came back here in Japan, I have been so busy. I feel I came back to my normal life here. Then I have realized that I have not been changed.  I have started being up set myself because I was not doing whatever I thought I should do to be godly woman. 

I was not listening to him or trusting Him because I was busy trying to be a godly women whom I created.  I asked him to forgive me. 

My life has been changing so much since I came to Christ.  Some times I get confused but then I tell myself "God who found me and gave me Hope in my life is charging my life. There is nothing I have to worry about. Whatever he gives me is all I need. This is all about him not about me."

I am so thankful because I alive now for his glory.  Because my life has a purpose now. 

 

    

My angels

This coming Sunday will be my last day working at Chapel as nursery worker. I have been working there five years.  Yes it is a big part of my life. I have met so many children there. I am not ready for leaving there. I am not ready for leaving children.  They are my angels.  They are my sunshine.  I will miss them so much.   

My weakness

"You are my strength when I am weak  You are the treasure That I seek   You are my all in all.

Seeking you as a precious jew'l  Lord to give up I'd be a fool You are my all in all.

Taking my sin  My cross my shame  Rising again I bless your name  You are my all in all.

When I fall down You pick me up  When I am dry You fill my cup  You are my all in all.

Jesus Lamb of God  Worthy is your name   Jesus Lame of God  Worthy is your name."

I have been listening to this song and I can't stop weeping.

Today was a rough day.  I tried to cheer up but I couldn't.  How weak I am......

I used to feel guilty when I was weak and I hated my weakness.  Still sometimes I feel guilty but I am always encouraged by this verse. 

"He said to me 'My grace is sufficient for you,for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why,for Christ's sake I delight in weaknesses,in insults ,in hardships,in   persecutions,in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."    2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I am going to cry out to God tonight and I will have a new day tomorrow again. 

 

My 2nd birthday as Christian

Today is my 2nd birthday as Christian.  I am 2 years old Christian now.   21st,October,2006  I accepted  Jesus as my saver.  Since then my life has changed.  God gave me the purpose of my life.

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son Of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained though the law, Christ died for nothing."    GALATIANS  2:20-21 

Without him, I am nothing.  Because of his died, my life is valuable.   

God's will

God's will is always perfect.  I believe that. God put me this situation(Living in American society) for his glory. So I am not complaining.  I am thankful.  But some times it is really hard. I feel so  lonely.  I really wish if I could understand what people say or how people feel more  than I do.  I know I am loved and I love them. But that's why I want to share more I want to understand more.  Is that wrong to feel that way? 

"For it is commendable if a man bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because he is conscious of God."   1 Peter 2:19 

 

Devotions

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Sprit,from the Spirit will reap eternal life." Galatians 6:7-8 

Everything you do,all day long, is an opportunity to sow good sees,or bad ones,that can drastically change things in your life. Get an early start in sowing only what you want to come back to you! 

God's Love

I had a hard weekend.  I had been hurting by people's remark.  I could not be strong enough to be calm in the face of it.  Then I tried to control everything by myself  instead of  giving them to God.  I was tired of thinking and controlling everything by myself.  I had been asking God "God help me! Please give me strength and wisdom to get over and still love these people who hurt me!! "   I could not talk to them with love.  I was up set with them and myself also. 

 But still God showed me His Love to me by people.  God's love never changes no matter what I  have done.  

"Love is a feeling of the mind as much as of the heart; it concerns the will as much as the emotions. It describes the deliberate effort-which we can make only with the help of God...."

  ( by Merrill E. Unger)

"Christian love is an act of the will which needs to be directly cultivated." (by Alfred Martin John)

"When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"  Psalm 56:3-4 

God please help me to love others.  I want to love others like you love me.  I can love others because you love me.  You are the one who touch me how to be loved by others  and love others.  I want to love others with all my heart. 

 

The purpose in my life

I have decided to not moving to Canada.  Yes, moving to Canada was one of my big dreams. When I got the working visa for Canada on Feb , I was so happy.  I believed that God wants me to go there.  I don't remember exactly since when but I had started to being wondering if it is Gods will for me to move to Canada because I was struggling.  I had two feelings. I want to go but I don't want to go. I had been asking God to show me what his will is.  He had been silent. So I tried to tell myself that since I got the visa,this is Gods will so I go. Yet I didn't have peace.  Some friends said that since I am leaving soon, I have mixed feelings. I thought that is true. About three  weeks ago Jim who is the director at Lighthouse asked me what is the purpose to go to Canada.I had  to think about it in a while. I had been having a strong desire to leave Japan since when I was teenager. Because I believed that I can find the purpose to exist in this world. In other words  I had felt there is no place for me to exist in Japan. Seven years ago I went to Canada for two weeks. I  had a wonderful time. I loved Canada. Since then I had been dreaming about moving to Canada. So why I was struggling about moving to Canada??  

I have realized that I am really interested in ministry. I am enjoying to help ministry here at Lighthouse. 

Then I started thinking about going to bible college. This was the reason that I was struggling. 

Since I became a christian the purpose in my life has been changed.  I don't need to go find the purpose to exist in this word. God gave me the purpose in my life and he will leads me and provides everything I need in my life. He knows what I need and what is best for me.  There is nothing I can do without him.  

Thank you so much for all your prayer. Please keep praying that God shows me his will and the way I go.

I will live my life for him!!